I'm a big brother

It's easy to realize that you missed out on certain things that, looking back at least, could have meant so much more. There are plenty of times when I critique myself for not spending more time with my dad when I was younger, or paying attention to how my brother coached me through life during my teenage stages. I sit here and try my best at things like that, but I know there is no perfect solution. I think I do pretty well at being there for my sister, although I am positive sometimes I forget she is only 16. It's an interesting thought process that more people should consider. Try thinking about how you can improve your life from past experiences though. I'm not talking about learning from your mistakes, but learning from what you would have liked to experience. Hope that makes sense!

My Return...Part 2

Sorry guys for the false start. What I didn't know last time was I happened to be getting into a busy lifestyle of bats, road trips, and new people. Now though, I hope to again ponder existence and anything else I feel relevant at the time of contribution to this wonderful (if only...) blog I started. I hope that I can stay away from the drab going-ons of everyday life, while still complaining just enough about society to stay interesting. For now, I am onto bigger and better things: KKY flag football and physics homework. As with life always, hakuna matata.

I'm Back!!!

After a 5 month gauntlet of school work and life work (if that makes sense?), my ramblings are back! Lots of new thoughts, revisited thoughts, and BATS!!! Yes, bats. I am gonna be studying bats this summer in Missouri, which I am pretty stoked about. Also, I've started a campaign to rekindle friendships I have let slip in the past, and it is going good! Alrighty, well its class time for Tim. Hasta la pasta!

Let the Games Begin!

I got my early voter ballot in the mail today... it's gonna be a fun next couple of weeks to see how this thing turns out. All I know is that if either one of these candidates get elected, I have decided to leave the country for about 5 months (maybe Italy?) to escape any financial trouble that might take place.

Italy

So, as unexpected as this is for both me and you guys, looks like I am going to be studying abroad in Italy next semester, which is really pretty sweet. It was one of those things that just kind of fell in place perfectly (except I still need to find a sub-lease). I'd be going to the island of Sicily, in the city of Syracuse. Lol I know none Italian or really much at all of their culture over there, but it will an adventure! And I love adventures... There's the world's most studied active volcano over there, Mt. Etna, and I'd be taking a volcanology class so that would be really sweet (at first I though it was about Vulcans, but then I realized it was an o and not a u as the second letter). I am really excited about this and have the support of my parents, which is a nice change. Lately nothing has really been happening in my life besides this. The coolest part about it is it cost exactly the same as if I were to stay here at Baylor. All my scholarships transfer which is amazing, and I don't have to pay fees to Baylor, just base tuition. I am really excited.

*Insert real title here*

Today seemed to be a pretty good day, especially the more I reflect on it. For once I actually feel completely comfortable with a test, and if there is any semester I need to do amazing on this is the one. I mean its a really easy class, but it is a good confidence booster.

Tonight I also had a really good conversation with someone I hadn't really hung out with in awhile. We talked about some about relationships and what not, and that ran into does true love really exist. Now I have always been a huge supporter of true love, and tonight when I said that I tried to think of an example, but nothing came up. Then, a memory of mine that I forget about every once in awhile came to me and reminded me that true love really does exist. When my granddad died, at the funeral I felt probably the most vulnerable I have ever felt. I grew up with him and my grandmother and it just kind of hit me all at once that he was no longer there. Both of my grandparents were in not-so-good health situations and we were expecting the time to come, and even when I found out it didn't kill me at first. But at his funeral, I was the most emotional I have ever been. After it was over, and all the guests had left minus our family, my grandmother asked if she could see him one more time. We helped her up there, and she looked at him and said "He is as handsome as the first day I met him." This struck everyone pretty deep and more tears were flowing. A couple seconds after that statement, she asked "Can I kiss him?" This sent me over the edge. I had never seen this kind of devotion and love before, and it is amazing what it can do to someone. Here is my whole family fighting tears, except for my grandmother, who only had a couple streaming down her cheek. She loved him more than anyone will ever know and thats how I know that true love exists. Sometimes in life, it might look like it doesn't, but life experiences like these are what keep people going on the right path. Thinking about this moment makes me vulnerable and I'm not afraid to admit it.

It was a good day and a good night. Too bad they all can't be like this, but the good ones will always make up for the many bad ones, atleast thats how I see it.

In San Antonio

My trip home for the weekend has been semi-productive so far. For those of you who care about college football, Baylor played amazing Friday night and are definitely on the right track. Today I spent most of the day with my mom, and that can either be good or bad. At times I caught myself feeling like I was in high school again and it was a tad annoying. I did finally get a new pair of running shoes; my old ones are entering their last stages of life because I go through tennis shoes like nothing else.

After a nice meal for a change, I came over to my dads for the rest of the weekend. My sister and I watched Stardust because it is her new favorite movie and I liked it despite the complete randomness at times. Randomness can be good, because if it wasn't then I would get no where in life. There was a good little scene about true love that really got me thinking for about five minutes, and I was gonna write about that tonight, but it is a little cheesy and I lost my mojo. But it is nice to know that as you get farther in life, you start to realize little things that were always so confusing before and start to accept them. I can't really give an example, but we all know it is true. Another thing I have really been enjoying lately is keeping up with my friends via their blogs. I've always found it nice to know what is running through their heads and wondering if there was anything I could help them with. Just seeing all my friends in different situations and living different lifestyles, but each being happy, makes me happy in turn.

One thing that has bugged me a little this week was the difference in my mindset in my intramural tennis match versus my intramural football match. I've always known I lack a killer instinct in certain sports and activities, but thought it was just random. It just occured to me one day that in things like singles tennis, or a video game, I have nothing to play for. It is just my own personal satisfaction and I already am satisfied participating in whatever. As for like flag football or doubles tennis, I want to win for my team mates and want to help them out with whatever I can. This was a weird epiphony when I first had it, but it makes complete sense now. If I could find something to stand for in tennis or other events where I am the only one competing, then I would do so much better. But if I am satisfied with just partaking in whatever I am doing and having fun, then should I try and be more competative in solo sports? I dunno.

Alrighty well thats about it for now. I'm gonna try and post some more interesting videos and stories eventually. Hope all is well!