In San Antonio

My trip home for the weekend has been semi-productive so far. For those of you who care about college football, Baylor played amazing Friday night and are definitely on the right track. Today I spent most of the day with my mom, and that can either be good or bad. At times I caught myself feeling like I was in high school again and it was a tad annoying. I did finally get a new pair of running shoes; my old ones are entering their last stages of life because I go through tennis shoes like nothing else.

After a nice meal for a change, I came over to my dads for the rest of the weekend. My sister and I watched Stardust because it is her new favorite movie and I liked it despite the complete randomness at times. Randomness can be good, because if it wasn't then I would get no where in life. There was a good little scene about true love that really got me thinking for about five minutes, and I was gonna write about that tonight, but it is a little cheesy and I lost my mojo. But it is nice to know that as you get farther in life, you start to realize little things that were always so confusing before and start to accept them. I can't really give an example, but we all know it is true. Another thing I have really been enjoying lately is keeping up with my friends via their blogs. I've always found it nice to know what is running through their heads and wondering if there was anything I could help them with. Just seeing all my friends in different situations and living different lifestyles, but each being happy, makes me happy in turn.

One thing that has bugged me a little this week was the difference in my mindset in my intramural tennis match versus my intramural football match. I've always known I lack a killer instinct in certain sports and activities, but thought it was just random. It just occured to me one day that in things like singles tennis, or a video game, I have nothing to play for. It is just my own personal satisfaction and I already am satisfied participating in whatever. As for like flag football or doubles tennis, I want to win for my team mates and want to help them out with whatever I can. This was a weird epiphony when I first had it, but it makes complete sense now. If I could find something to stand for in tennis or other events where I am the only one competing, then I would do so much better. But if I am satisfied with just partaking in whatever I am doing and having fun, then should I try and be more competative in solo sports? I dunno.

Alrighty well thats about it for now. I'm gonna try and post some more interesting videos and stories eventually. Hope all is well!